Scary

School is scary. After being out for four years - I fear that I have forgotten how to go to school. And study. And retain that type of educational information.

I had to take my first online quiz last week, and was terrified (I did well, don't worry). It's the weirdest feeling. For such a huge part of your life you are conditioned to just learn and learn and learn. You know how to do it, and it becomes easy. And, it's all your expected to do.

Being thrown back into that environment is crazy, and a bit overwhelming. What and how you learn in the real world is different. It's on the go, fast-paced and trial and error. That's not how school is. You have to know it. And you have to know it now (or by the assigned test date).

My nights this week are going to be spent reading, reading, more reading, and making flash cards. Goodness. Been a while since I have had to do any of that.

I'm almost looking forward to the first tests in these classes so that I can reassure myself that I still know how to learn. And the additional pressure is on, since I basically have to get A's in all of my pre-req classes if I have any chance of getting into nursing school. Geeze.

What did I get myself into?? Nothing that I can't handle. I know that. Just takes a shift back to the good old days when structured learning was all I knew how to do!